Sunday, 28 September 2008

  • Entry #61: Heroes Within Us pt.2: From one hero to another

    Hey yo~~~/

       After giving Evan Tanner his dues that he deserves, it is time to talk about my first journey that got me into becoming a hero.  At first, it wasn't anything that triggered it, it was based on signs that lead me to it.  It was always in question that maybe I have become the man of action just like John Locke of Lost but I never thought it would lead me to this point where heroism meant something else.  I never thought heroism meant doing good deeds that can looked at as another deed.  What is occurring now leads me to be a man who can make something of himself when I do what is right.
       It first started back in August during the Olympics in Beijing.  I talked about this in the previous series, 'Tale of the Prince' when Naych was at a loss and he needed an incentive to get him back into destiny.  I cannot be to sure what he needed.  I was sure he wanted some meaning in life or a reality check.  Kind of contradictory there but I couldn't really understand Naych's wants are.  All I remember was that I told him the things I learned during August.  And there were many, of course.  All of which are in relation towards an understanding of my path.
       After understanding about what the future holds for me, I must now apply that in situations that require it.  I must learn to be a hero and make sacrifices.  I need to forsake certain things that I worked on and even loved in order to fulfill the greater good.  Just like how my game crashed on me.  It was a sacrifice I needed to understand.  It was a test of how I would deal with the loss.  I wouldn't know for sure if I passed it.  All I know is that I had to make a choice in what I have to do next.  I had to make righteous decisions and turn my life around.  With all that being done, somewhere eventually, I would end up getting back my game.  I got back 70% which wasn't that bad.
       Anyways, I found out that Naych became more philosophical.  He had a change of attitude towards the world and decided not to be troubled towards to the things of what was going on.  I wasn't sure if I he managed to get his bearings straight after the day I told him about the things I learned but I am certain some residues were there.  My mark was made, nonetheless.  He has his individual story to go through and so have I.  During that time, I was still on my journey towards being a prince...
       In the end of August, I learned to make sacrifices without questioning why I had to make them.  With the understanding that I had in that month, it was no surprise to me why I had to lose the championship belt to Naych during the Big Two Match.  It made sense that Naych needed something to mark his 'comeback' towards life.  In the past, I never wanted to come into a Big Two Match and face anyone knowing that I will lose.  In the last few month, my record really mattered..  Before losing to Naych, I had a record of 5 victories and 2 losses.  That was something to be proud about.  I never wanted the record tainted--but now, I felt that it was okay.
       In the month of September I had to deal with myself finding answers to what happened when I couldn't achieve my goal in becoming the Prince.  This was a heart breaker.  I found out that it was another sacrificial moment that I had to make.  Somehow, my Father in heaven decided it would be best for me to sacrifice the $50,000 for a life of being a hero.  Instead of the rich spoiled kid, I ended up doing good deeds towards others.  I'm not sure if this was a better trade off but morally, it got some points.
       Naych became more of the thinker which was intriguing.  Yes, after the day he found himself (with a little bit of aid), he seems more of the 'faithchild' type.  Its as if we traded places.  It really was a new spin on things.  I like to thank my Father in heaven for giving me a 'guideline' by having me buy Angel since the reflection of a 'heroic faithchild' is written all over Angel.  I felt inspired to walk the walk and do some good deeds.
       At the end of September, I ended up learning a few things on the final day where I had to make one more sacrifice.  Me and Naych went out on a bowling stint.  I told him that anything can happen and maybe another heroic deed may occur if we go bowling.  He was all up for it so we went.  We played 6 games and guess what--Naych managed to get an average of 145 in those 6 games we played.  I think he passed over 100 in the first game but he got 143 and 145 respectively on the next four games!  He even managed to get 152 in the last game.  Its hyperfocus, I tell yah!  He seems to pull of that score when I used bowl on my own.  Though, I managed to get over 170 on 'competitive' moments but there is no proof to show my buddies.  It all boils down to hyperfocus.  Why?  Simple.  Normally, we don't bowl a good record with all the distractions around you so you end up under performing.  But when your by yourself with not too many distractions, you will be surpised how high you can perform. 
       For the record, the sacrifice was learning that you aren't who you once were.  Maybe one day, the original faithchild will make its way back home...
       I remember a quote from Naych during a golfing stint where he said, "I realize that you aren't a good player if you can't get over distractions."  I'm starting to think thats true.  I believe that you can be a good player EVEN if there are distractions.  You must, of course, use the hyperfocus.  And, of course, the distractions must be indirect and not deliberate. 
       I've learned to apply the hyperfocus a couple days ago when me and Naych decided to go play pool.  Even though I wasn't a good pool player, I tried to stay focused.  Unfortunately, there was too much distractions.  Not distractions of the environment or even how I play but more related towards how I changed in the past five years.  I don't know what has gotten over me but I was beginning to realize that I am no longer the faithchild that once was spiritual.  More on that when I get the time to write about it.
       In the pool game, I managed to apply the hyperfocus in the sixth game of pool when I told myself that I will become the original faithchild again.  It was something that helped me stay 'righteous' in my own mind.  It was a peace of mind stint where I ended up 'loving' everyone around me.  I needed that release because I felt frustrated.  I ended up winning that last game by sinking in most of the balls (which I don't normally do).  The truth is, I am really poor in pool.  I cannot win most of the time but this time, I ended up beating Naych who was a far better player than I am.
       Things have changed.  I think now I have become the man of action and I am starting to do things that Naych has done before.
       Even though we have gone through our own personal journey as individuals, we are still walking life helping each other out as a duo.  Learning from each other and helping each other move forward.  A far better quote came from Deus Ex 3 in which as individuals the way to move forward.

    "Who we are is but a stepping stone to what we can become."

       In any case, like having a cross over, we have to go our separate ways, temporarily.  In the meantime, I have what I need and need to apply it.  I can only move forward from here.

    Faith:)

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