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Monday, 27 July 2009

  • Entry #66: The Humble Hero Stories: July 6th-July 12th, 2009 Week 3

    Hey yo~~~/

    THE U TURN THAT CHANGED MY LIFE

      
    Okay, this is probably thee biggest week in the journey of the Humble Hero.  This was the week that indeed changed my life--including another person.  I made a promise to myself that I would change a life within the month of July.  The unfortunate thing is, I managed to change a life for the worst.  I cannot believe I fulfilled my quest of changing a life for the wrong reasons.  I knew I should have made the quest more specific.
       What happened is that I ended up getting into an accident.  I was not driving though.  Both cars were parked.  It was a twisted situation where it was possible that the car could have been avoided.  In fact, all of this could have been avoided!
       It was a normal Friday like any other.  The date of the accident was Friday 10th, 2009.  Today's date is Friday 31st, three weeks later after the incident occurred.  Life after the accident has not been the same since.  I guess you can blame the accident but most of all, you should blame the hot weather (more on that on week 6).
       If you recorded how I felt after the accident occurred, you would see the shock on my face.  I was almost in a nervous break down.  There were witnesses so there would be no hit and run (like I was thinking about that).  The owner of the car was working in a building and did not see what happened.  I wrote the note and put it on the dashboard.  It was the only honest thing I could do.  Man, I was shaken up.
       All this took was one stupid decision.  A decision that simply was the right one, covering up a wrong one.  What happened was that I parked the van on a small hill going to make a delivery to a customer.  I left the engine on (stupid decision) knowing I was going to be quick in the delivery.  On the bottom side of the hill which was on the side of the building was the victims car.  I saw a stranger who looked like a car thief and decided to turn off the engine (smart decision) and make the delivery, that is when things went wrong.  When I parked the car, I had no idea the stick was still set to drive.  Stupid, stupid, stupid!  I reached in and turned off the engine and realized that the van was rolling fast down hill making a complete U-turn.  If I straightened the wheels making the park, the van would not make a U turn and I would only hit the gutter.  I was on the driver door of the moving van not knowing what to do.  Everything happened so fast that I could not think about how to stop the van from moving.  I tried holding the steering wheel so that it could not move.  Stupidly, it kept on moving.  Stupid, stupid, stupid!
       When the van stopped after it it scraped the car, I knew I was in shiest.  This was the straw that broke the camels back...I will not be hired by ICS after this incident.  Ironically, this accident came after I finished submitting the brokers abstract a few days before.  This means that my supervisor sees me in the clean for another year.  Another irony is that I bragged to myself and to others that I did not get myself into an accident where it has been my fault for ages.  The last three accidents that occurred involving me happens to be someone elses fault.  I never press charges on any of them--save for one.
       At the end of the week, I found out that I had to pay over $800 more in 2010.  This is not a good sign.  I had to pay close to $2000 after three years.  This is already set in stone and my life has changed--for the worst.  I completed the quest called 'change a life for the month of July'.  And that I did, that I did. *sighs*
       This week actually made last weeks hockey breakdown a failed comparison.  I do not know if I can take any more punishment...

    ROLE PLAYER MAKER
      
      
    If there is one hobby that will take my mind away from the problems, that is RPG Maker.  I quit creating an RPG knowing how long it will take to get a demo done--let alone a full game.  Also, having an X Box 360 did not help.  The twist now is that the X Box 360 is destroyed.  I wanted something new to do when I am at home.  What better way than to continue with my game again...
       Well, it did not go that way at first.  All I wanted to do was play an RPG Maker game, particularly a demo simply to pass the time.  I found some pretty decent games out there that had intriguing storylines.  After that tryout, I knew that I had to continue the unfinished game.
       It was hard thinking about how this was going to work because it has been so long.  I felt that the basics of the game needed to be relearned once more.  With the way how things been going on as of late, I believe this will be accomplished.  I am sure I will get a demo done within the year.  I strongly believe that.  I might even use my current situation as the Humble Hero to create some good ideas for my character.
       One of the greatest assets I got for this game is the musical making from 'Milk Man Dan'.  It was a treat hearing his music even though I did not even started on the game.  The music is one of the biggest keys in the making of a excellent game.
       I trended on another direction from what I originally made, however.  The only reason for that is the bad reviews from a great game I just played.  The game is called Notes of the Second Mellynd War.  It was very political but poorly done in terms of graphics.  Granted he is using an older RPG Maker but most of the games graphics and music are 'borrowed'.  This got bad reviews because of the trademark.  I almost used trademark graphics and music in my game.  I decided to change that and keep it original.
       I realized that there are way too many straightforward RPG Maker games out there.  I decided to step out of the bounds and make a game (though not orignal) that was simply different than your typical RPG Maker.  I felt a new trend is simply better and fresher when starting on  a clean slate.
       My new game consist a bit of Harvest Moon, Elder Scrolls and the traditional RPG style.  Though I am currently on week six with nothing barely done, I got a ton of ideas that I wanted to show the gamers.  I wanted to show that I can make a worthy playing game that has almost has NO SCRIPTS.  It is a hard task but someones gotta do it
       With what is going on today with the boiling weather and car accident, I need a time off.  This is what I call a time off from reality.  Who knows, maybe I will learn something that I can apply in the Humble Hero reality.

    BROTHERS IN ARMS

      
    Even though someone else's week turned out for the worst, there were someone else life turned out for the better.  As mild as the change was it was something that made me feel at ease.
       My big brother called me at home.  I did not want to talk to him thinking that he would ask a lot from me, maybe play Call of Duty or something.  However, he called me and said that his television did not work and I had to guide him to get it to work. 
       You see, I bought myself a HD television and it was something I always wanted for my X Box 360 experience.  I bought it along with the new X Box 360.  If I failed to say it on the previous entries then I will say it here--again.  I bought myself another X Box 360.  I will still find a way to fix the old--one day.
       Through a step by step basis, I helped my brother get his television to work.  It was a small moment of a get together with my brother knowing that I have ignored his calling when he wanted to play Call of Duty 4.  I will tag with him--only when it is time.  *sighs*
       Truth is, I am so consumed with the game I am making that I had to choose one or the other.  We will see what follows.

    Faith:)

Saturday, 18 July 2009

  • Entry #65: The Humble Hero Stories: June 30th-July 5th, 2009 Week 2

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    HOCKEY TEASER

      
    This is one of the most important weeks in the life of the Humble Hero.  This was the week where I put a stamp on the Vancouver Canucks.  I finally got Roberto Luongo and now I managed to get Cody Hodgson.  This year, I was anxious to get Stefan Elliott: a puck moving defensemen; a powerplay quarterback; a transitionalist.  This is the defensemen that Canucks needed for so long.  I did my research on the web and figured that Stefan Elliott was the best fit for the Canucks.  I almost got a good read with the Draft book until I lost it.
      One of the beauties in a destined life is when you begin to see the signs.  The signs are not just the things you see and you have to interpret.  The signs can also be something more related to The Secret where things go your way.  On Team 1040, where multiple host talked about the Canucks possibly acquiring Stefan Elliott.  This was a breath of fresh air.  I felt that this was a sign and a calling that another top prospect will land with the Vancouver Canucks.  To top it off, it came on a week where my life has turned around for the better.
       Despite how things turned out on certain bad days last week, I felt that I overcame them and did alright.  Things seem to be going my way for the Canucks on Draft Day.
       Stefan Elliott welcome to the Vancouver Canucks!...
       Another ace that was rumored to be here was Marian Gaborik.  As much as I did research for Stefan Elliott, Marian Gaborik was one to behold.  He could possibly be the next closest Pavel Bure the Canucks  could acquire.  On top of that, he is the type of player I wanted in the team that can change my life forever--according to the signs of old.
       There were teasers of Marian Gaborik owning a house in Vancouver while he was still with Minnesota.  There was talk that Gaborik could join the Vancouver Canucks because he might want to play with his buddy Pavol Dimitra.  This story broke on The Province and then on the radio, Team 1040.  With this in mind, I knew that the Canucks are on the verge to move forward towards the Utopia I had set during Dave Nonis era.
        Marian Gaborik welcome to the Vancouver Canucks!...
       So like I said on the second paragraph where things are turning around for the better, what are the odds of this going wrong?  Well lets see...Last week, I overcame a two or three difficult work days and my X Box 360 broke down.  I came out strong and overcome these problems.  I handled them well and I believed that this was a good sign for my Father in heaven to reward me with two players I wanted on my team...
       A rule of thumb when it comes to the Father in heaven, do not under any circumstance believe what the Father in heaven will do for you because you never know.  Well, I cannot say that this is a rule of thumb but more like a  golden rule.  In this case, neither Stefan Elliott or Marian Gaborik joined the Vancouver Canucks!  I even decided to go on the Grouse Grind to 'coronate' Stefan Elliott coming to Vancouver.  *shaking my head*  On Canada Day, after being depressed that Elliott was drafted by Colorado Avalanche, my heart sank when Petey Boy texted me about Gaborik being traded to New York Rangers on a long term deal!  I...lost...everything.  Even Marian Hossa, who would be the other half of Gaborik got another deal with Chicago.
       Even Chicago looks more like the team I envisioned for the Canucks!
       Looking back, I tried to figure out what went wrong.  Why the 'tease' coming from destiny?  I thought I did everything right--didn't I?  I figured that this could be more of a further test.  Last week was more of a 'trying to get the Humble Hero in a state of panic'.  Now its more of 'trying to get the Humble Hero pissed off'.  Instead, I was more depressed on how this went down.  I still stuck to my guns in moving forward but I slowed down my pace a lot more than I would have.  The following week was not all that up and up.  Today is July 21st and I know what followed after July 6th.
       I ended up figuring out one aspect that did not look right.  And its simply that, 'believing I am doing right'.  This Canuck Draft Day and UFA (unrestricted free agents) Day, did not go my way because I believed that I did everything right.  Everything was right that I should be rewarded...
       I remembered the pharisees and the tax collector.  The pharisees talks about how he did everything that the Father in heaven wanted and the pharisees scorned the tax collector for not living up to the Fathers expectations.  The tax collector humbles himself and admits his fault asking for forgiveness.  I just realize that I had a lapse of being the pharisees rather than the tax collector. 
        *sighs*  If there is a golden rule, I would remember this parable and understand what it truly is to become a Humble Hero.  I have yet to understand what it is like to be the tax collector.
       We will see going forward how things will work out.  Because in all honesty, nobody wants to hear what I thought about the Sedins signing with the Canucks.  I will just leave it at that.

    RISE AND FALL OF KINGS


       This is a little late knowing that this entry is between June 30th - July 5th.  It is even more late that today is July 21st.  But now is the time where I decided to post this topic because it aligns to the hockey teaser topic and what occurred a week before that.
       It is time to honor Michael Jackson after he passed away on June 25th, 2009.
       Yes.  Michael Jackson passed away--for those who have been living under a rock.  What can I say, he is a legend.  He is called the King of Pop for a reason.  He does go alongside the ranks of Elvis Presley who is called the King of Rock.  Being a worldwide phenomenon, he deserved his dues--despite his late problems.
       I am honoring him now by listening to one of his musics that I adore way back when, "You are not alone" while I write this entry.   On another note, I honored him on a physical level the day after he passed away.  On the Draft Day, I decided to do the Grouse Grind after work honoring Michael Jackson as a sign of 'rising kings overcoming adversity and becoming the king of the mountain'.  Not a bad way to honor him.
       I decided to do that for Michael AND Stefan Elliott--if he joined--no, no--let me rephrased that during that day.  WHEN Stefan Elliott joins the Canucks organization, I will honor him in coronations by doing the Grouse Grind.  This was the cherry on top of all the 'right' things I have done in the past.  Of course, right is not always 'right'.
       On my road to honoring two great men, I had a bit of doubt.  I was fearing the idea of Stefan Elliott being picked by another team early.  I knew in my heart that Canucks will pick him as long as another team does not early on.  There were trades being made in duration of pick number 10 to 20.  I would be lying to you if I told you that I was not scared shiestless.
       During the trek to the mountain, I had a good time driving there.  Crossing the bridge to downtown was a treat when I saw over one thousand bicyclist going the opposite way while I was listening to the Montreal Canadiens make their pick.  Since the Draft was taking place in Montreal, the peeps there were going wild on who they were going to pick.  On my end of the radio, it looked like one thousand bikers were coronating and parading for this pick.
       Well, for me, it takes a prince to know a prince.  I am here to honor a fallen king and soon to be king...*ahem*  I pegged Elliott to be the next Nicklas Lindstrom...*ahem*
       Of course, that was shot down and we got Jordan Schroeder.
       Anyway, I was committed to the Grind and I was there already.  Maybe a walk to the top will ease my mind.  Looking back on the time I went up.  I remembered two distinct runs I made.  One good run where I got an hour and one bad run where I got an hour and a half--with lots of stopping.
       On this day of cornation, there will be no stopping.  Aching as I am after the oval run last week, I believe that I recovered enough to make it to the top.  If not, I have a phone to call 911.
       This one is interesting, despite sticking to my guns in going all the way to the top without stopping, I never realize that I was beaten by people in all shapes and sizes!  At first, I did not mind the fact that late comers, especially dedicated ones, will pass me to the top.  Besides, I came five minutes before closing time.  What I did not expect is that thirty some odd people would pass me--old folks, a young kid and flat bloat, too!
       Would you believe it?  I went up not stopping (granted at a terribly tired pace) and looked behind me finding a little boy, who looks like pre-schooler, cruise pass me like it is another day in the park.  He was humming going up half way through the Grind!  He was not even tired!  He did not use his hands on tougher situations wheras I crawled about thirty times.  Honestly, even Naych could not beat this kid!  I kid you not (pardon the pun)!  This kid was as tall as my legs!  He was that small with a baby-like voice.  I ended up losing him in a mere minute up the grind--including his daddy, of course.  When I saw them both, again, at the gondola, the kid wanted an ice cream...I swear, if I do not see this kid as a pro athleete, there is no hope in the world.
       To add another insult to my conditioning, an old man and woman past me.  They were going at a decent pace for their age.  However, their pace was more efficient than mines that I ended slowing them down.  They wanted to get passed me while I was in my tired state.  I swear, by the look in the mans eye, he wanted to hit me with his cane--if he brought it.
       I believe the kid was about 8 years old and these two were probably over 70...Yeesh!
       To top it off, I did not go beaten throughout the grind--yet.  I believed I managed to get past a bloated man who had a very cute and nicely fit girl by his side.  They were both asians and I was giving the asian girl a nice look who in return gave one back.  I managed to catch up to them while they were taking a break in the first quarter of the run.  In duration of the run, I managed to keep a decent lead up the midway point.  Upon looking back, I realize that those two asian couple would not be seen by my naked eye.  After agonizingly making the 75% mark, looking back, there was no chance in hell those two would ever pass me.  They were no where to be seen...  Honestly, I was bold enough to believe that it was virtually IMPOSSIBLE for those two to catch up to me.  When I finally made it 95% from the top, I could here people behind me...and guess who they were...Yepperz, the two asian couples passing me near the top (smiling when they did).
       Read my writing ==> THERE IS NO WAY THAT BIG, 300 POUND MAN, COULD PASS ME!  *sighs*  Who am I kidding...If a kindergarden boy and two great grandparents could pass me on the grind, then anything is possible...
       ...Ironically, Stefan Elliott coming to Vancouver was more possible than this!
       A lesson to learn kids when you decide to become a humble hero:

    "You put others ahead of yourself." ~anoymous

       Funny thing is, I actually like the result of this run compared to my worst one.  My worst one where I stopped for long periods of time showed laziness.  This one showed committment even though I was worse by 3 minutes.  Keep in mind, I did not stop--other than to think.
       Anyway, I almost forgot what the topic should be about:  The honoring of Michael Jackson and Jordon Schroeder--yeeaah--kind of forgot about that...
       When I reached the top, I got something to eat and looked out the 'look out point'.  As I marvel at the view, I toasted to Michael Jordan.  Who is the greatest basketball player in the world--and also to Michael Jackson and Jordan Schroeder who are great in their own right.
       There are kings and there are princes all of which achieved greatness and failures in their lives.  One thing is for certain, it is good to know when to step down for a young prospect and when to step back for a old veteran, however, if you let a big fat guy beat you, then it is a whole another story.

    HUMBLE'S CREED

       On Canada Day, I did not do much in terms of going out and training my body.  I was so depressed about how things went down on the Draft Day including today's turn out on the unrestricted free agency day.  Even though the day was a holiday and I had a good amount of time to commit on something useful, I decided to just simply lay back.
       I am sure around British Columbia, Canadians were celebrating by going on tourist sites and celebratory locations.  Even my family had a mini get together moment.  There were a lot of food and we had a barbecue.  I took the food but stayed in my room almost all day.
       I was playing Assassin's Creed.  I did not play Call of Duty 4 because maybe it would ruin my thinking if other players kicked my arse.  I simply settled on straightforward gaming.
       I could not relate to the character other than being isolated.  The storyline itself did not stand out in terms of relation of my own life.   However, the only thing that seems to stand out is the creed itself.
       The story is about the assassin named Altair (duh!).  And Altair screwed up.  He ended up breaking the three codes of the Assassins.  The codes are:

    1. Never kill an innocent.
    2. Never expose yourself.
    3. Do not compromise the brotherhood.

       Funny thing about these codes is that two out of three were easily broken.  I killed an innocent person by accident during a struggle with the guards.  I even believe the guards are innocent.  The main targets are probably innocent, too.  In all in righteousness, everybody's a sinner and no one is innocent.  This kind of tosses away the first code.
       The worst of all these codes is the second.  Never expose yourself as being an assassin.  I believe during the game, I ended up breaking this rule time and time again.  As a matter of fact, everyone who played the game broke this rule.  Its part of the game.  This is a guarantee code that will always be broken even though Altair is on the road to redeeming himself.  He will end up breaking this again.
       I do not think I ever broke the final code but surely, there is a lot of conspiracy going on and 'scandals' that this code was broken already.  I think Altair will end up breaking all the codes once again in the end.
       I have been thinking about the problems that has occurred in the last two weeks.  At times I began to think if the problems are my errors or if the problems are simply there for destined reasons.  Or, of course, you could settle for the typical 'its just coincidence' scenario.  After all the things I was suppose to learn in becoming the Humble Hero, I believe it has to be written in creed.
       In the early days of dynamic and destiny, me and Naych followed the three 'I': intensity, integrity and intelligence.   The three 'I' (<==it looks like a T but it really is an I with apostrophes) came from an icon wrestler named Kurt Angle who we idolize during 1999-2002.  During this time, me and Naych applied the three I's in our lives.  Angle was a 'good will' figure that we looked up to (despite the fake that goes in the ring) since the death of Owen Hart.
       When Owen Hart died on May 23, 1999, destiny was born on that day.  Kurt Angle made his debut in WWE at November 14th, 1999 within the same year.
       Ten years later, I become the Humble Hero.  In doing so, I am in the time frame to change my life forever in following these creeds I learned within the past two weeks:

    1, Do not have pride by success but be thankful for them.
    2. Despite any good deeds you do, never expect rewards.
    3.
    Put others ahead of yourself.

       Personally, I believe this can be can be tweaked, however, this is what I learned.  Anyway, with this in mind, I believe now I can go about life with something to fall back on so I can remember who I am about.  Hopefully these creeds do not fall short like the Assassin's Creeds.

    Faith:)

Wednesday, 29 April 2009

  • Entry #64: The Humble Hero Stories: June 22nd-28th 2009 Week 1

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    ORIGINS

       After months on end just living an ordinary life, something within me triggered something new.  I felt like I need a change of lifestyle.  There were no signs or destined moments to to trigger this.  There was absolutely nothing for many moons...Something changed on June 22nd, 2009 and I decided to follow it.
       June 22nd was just another day.  I have been thinking about the worship service sermon that talked about acts of humility.  It occurred to me that an old destined situation was kept unfinished.  I ended up looking back on my Xanga to figure out what was unfinished.  Then I found out more about who I am--or who I once was.
       The sermon on Sunday told a story about a tax payer and a pharisee.  The story went like this:

    Luke 18:9-14
       To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: "Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.' But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.' I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

       In short, it is better to acknowledge your faults and ask for forgiveness rather than pride at being better.
       My point being in this humility is that I decided to continue where I left off.  I decided to take the road of The Humble Hero.
       The name Humble Hero simple came up as a gamer tag on my X Box 360.  I find it fitting for the fact that I'm partly a spiritual person as well as a man who might become a hero--in the near future.
       There was a something different about June 22nd.  The delivery situation got me doing some different errands than I normally would.  I felt a sense of happiness despite the challenge was there.  Somehow destiny was changing the course around to see how I would react.  I felt confident that I could handle this well.  Things were going my way, fortunately enough.  It seems The Father made his presence known...
       A brother in the fold who is also a courier wanted to carpool with the deliveries.  Normally this would be a mistake but somehow I felt like it was the right thing to do.  I ended up agreeing and got rewarded in return.
       At the end of the day, I told myself that something was different and I found out what it was--I'm awake.  I'm finally awake and there are things that needed to get done.  I compiled the list and tomorrow my quest begins.

    OVAL RUN

       The following day, I went out my business being good to others and tried my best to show my respect regardless who they are.  Its a learning stage that I needed to master but performed just adequately.  It was good to know that I was more open to others than I was used to.  I was more pleased to hear out what they had to stay and entertain it further.  Knowing my business, I just never had the time to do that--time decided to slow down.
      One of the greatest achievements to better myself isn't just necessarily to converse with others but to build a healthy lifestyle.  One of the things I have been lacking for awhile is that I needed to get my body back in shape.  At the time, I weighted 190 pounds--which isn't half that bad but it wasn't muscle weight.  One of my 'to do' list is to drop to 170 pound before my birthday (August 10th).  If I can drop those 20 pounds, I know I have achieved something worth while in 2009.  However, if I can't manage to drop that weight than the second phase is to make sure that the weight translate to muscle rather than fat.
       At the end of another good work day, I went to Burns Creek to do an oval run.  Having not exercise in over 5 months, I know for sure that this would be a breeze.*sarcastic*  I was a bit nervous going there because there was a lot of people playing soccer and several peeps watching at the bleachers.  I felt embarrassed and alone--but if I don't commit to this, I know that I have failed on my first quest.  So I simply took caution and 'weaved the ring' before I ran.  It wasn't so bad.  Most of the old timers finally came out and started to do their walk as well.  Now I'm not alone.
       It was a sunny at that time and I felt at peace.  I now felt anxious to do the run.  It wasn't so bad.  No one minded me.  I ran on the outer circle of the track.  It felt like a good idea to get the challenge up rather than run the inner circle.
       The format would be running around the outer circle a total of 10 times without stopping to walk.  Then I would walk one round then begin running 5 more times.  It sounds simple enough...
       The first 5 were easy but the last 5 took a lot of strength out of me.  I felt a little foot problem after the 10 was done.  My upper legs were aching like mad.  I knew if I ran the last 5 then I would be cramping for weeks.  I couldn't possibly risk that.  It is better to live another day and try again.
       5 days later, I came back to do the oval run.  It was another sunny day with spots of clouds.  I felt better this time than I did the last.  Mostly it was the fact that I ran the Grouse Grind which I will talk about in another topic.  There were girls playing soccer this time.  More suitable for my lustful needs.  With girls being there rather than guys, I knew this would encourage me to perform better--not because I'm there impress them but rather the opposite.  The challenge is to overcome the temptation to impress them.  That is the art of humility.
       I was very satisfied running the oval 10 times in a row.  I felt so strong that I was already ready to do another 2 or 3 more.  I kept to my guns and began to walk 1 time around, however, I felt oddly tired and only ran 1 more time rather than the 5 I was suppose to commit.  Hmmm...
       At first the girls were kind of mocking me.  Maybe its my ripped up shoes...I didn't mind it at all.  Then after a a continual run they began to be impressed.  I can actually here them with such quotes as, "Whoah!", "I can't run that long.", "Wow.  When is he gonna stop?".  I kid you not.
       These two oval runs has been the first step into bodily perfection--or at least a healthy lifestyle.  Next week, 15 laps.

    LESSONS IN HUMILITY

       Not all day this week turned out for the better.  Wednesday the 24th, things took a bit of an expected turn--yes, expected.  To see how far my humility training will go, the day turned out pretty bad.  It was very busy at work.  I almost had a temper tantrum with an optical customer.  Did not deliver most of the everyday economics mail, boxes and Ceridians.  Lost my Draft book that prolongs my research of NHL draft choices.  And to top it off, my X Box 360 broke down.  This is a handful of negativity that took place after a day with lots of positivity.
       Oddly enough, even though at spurts of bad moments, I played most of the day pretty calmly.  I really was into being the Humble Hero that despite these bad moments, I believe that every situation can be remedied.
       The optical customer is a scar that can heal.  The female workers there are pretty nice people and I joke with them a lot.  It takes time but I know that in the future that we can come to terms and forget what happened.
       All my deliveries that I missed will make me busy in the near future but won't be too much of a hindrance.  I have had worst before where I almost did not deliver up to 35% of the mail.  The following two days remedied that situation.
       I did not find the Draft book until it was too late.  I did some research almost the last day before the NHL Draft took place July 1st.  More on that later.  Eventually, I found the book so that is a plus.
       The X Box 360 problem is a bigger blow than the others.  This is another sin that kept me from doing much in life after the 'separation'.  Most of my months were consumed with playing with the X Box.  Granted that I knew some people through X Box live and I had a great time playing Call of Duty and Fallout--still. 
       The one beauty that I can take out of the X Box 360 was the name of where my new life comes from--'Humble Hero'.  That is my gamertag after the 'Prodigy Childz' and the late 'Cursing Faithz'.
       The ring of light has now told me, indirectly, that I have a new path in life.  I will not be X Boxing for awhile now as I turn my head to the future.  This breakdown helped create the path that will translate into quest.  I told myself that I will make quest so I can get things done.  Like the oval run and the Grouse Grind.  I will set goals for myself and I will change my life.  Thanks to the breakdown of the X Box and my quest in becoming the Humble Hero...
       ...Though, I know for sure that I will fix the X Box 360 one way or another and get back gaming again.  In the meantime, Destiny awaits!

    Faith:)

Saturday, 15 November 2008

  • Entry #63: We're Five By Five: Decision Making

    Hey yo~~~/

       This was actually the second entry after the first Five By Five series.  I decided to post this up earlier because I am very pissed!  My good friend and his entire team didn't get voted in the municipal seating.  After checking out the results, I felt that there was a problem in the way the 'Team' approach it.  I realize that there aren't that far off based on individual votes.  I think team members had a chance to make it to the top 7 or 8...As a matter of fact, I think even the bottom person of the Team could've made it also.
       *shakes his head*  I just can't stop thinking about this loss.  Even though this isn't about me and all but I felt like I was part of the team when I volunteered.  Knowing that I'm destined, I think I had some sort of power in this...Sadly, I think I only gave it a little percentage for the fact I was enjoying all this outing and work.  I didn't really think too highly of it.  After watching the campaign voting on television, I felt saddened that the Team didn't even make the cut.  They weren't even talked about.  It felt so embarrassing after all those efforts.
       My personal opinion in hoping the Team to win was learn from the opposition.  Find ways to 'defect' the voters towards the Team.  I believe our approach was a little to soft.
       I've delivered at Surrey as a courier and have seen how people run their own campaign.  I think my ideas can filter through and help the Team have a more fighting chance in the near future--if there is a future.
       I hope my head leader isn't too upset.  From here on forth, no more games--only if its necessary, of course.

    Faith:)

Tuesday, 07 October 2008

  • Entry #62: Heroes Within Us pt.3: The Good...

    Hey yo~~~/

       So, I started the journey in doing things that reflects heroism and you wonder, where do I begin?  Simple.  The hero doesn't find trouble.  The trouble comes to you--or was it the other way around?  Anyways, under certain circumstances, I will eventually stumble into a situation where I need to make a decision--a good willing one.
       If it weren't for these circumstances, I wouldn't be writing these series.  I managed to get through a possible 9 to 10 achievements in the last month.  Even today (October 12th, 2008), good deeds has been added to that record.  Kind of ironic though since I watched an episode called 'Epiphany' in season two of Angel.  That episode would talk about doing good deeds but not keep record.  I will write down a conversation between Angel and Kate which was beautiful because it really relates to doing good deeds.  That will be posted at the end of this journal entry.
       My journey where action took place started when I decided to help out Naych (aka Hero) when he needed someone to talk to.  I took it from there after watching the first episode of Angel when I saw him on the roof top posing as Batman.  It felt as if this was a reflection of who I am.  A person living in loneliness but tries to do what he can that is right.  After several moments of thinking, I came to a conclusion that I have to take matters into my own hands.  It is time to be the man of action.  It felt right at the time.  Besides, John Locke did it.  He became a man of action with a self discovering journey.  He was suppose to be the man of beliefs.  Oh, how things have changed.
       To get back with helping out Naych without retelling the story after it was written in the last entry, I made several sacrifices.  Sacrifices that might be hard to accept at first but with a little understanding, I end up accepting the things that I lost.  What followed after the day I told him about the things I understood, we had a debate regarding the idea of 'test' and the concept of deeds.  Not so much of deeds but how we perceive it.  Is doing deeds either good or bad or shades of gray?  Maybe both.  I believe it is both, however, we cannot take away from the fact that it is more liberating when we make the right choice...It has been awhile that I made any right choices...
       On the day of the SPG which took place September 20th 2008 on a Saturday, my first test as a hero came into place at Church's Chicken where me, PT and Naych were buying some chicken.  I walked up to a counter to return the washroom keys and found a $10 bill lying on the floor next to a woman who was ordering something.  I picked it up and decided to figure out who this bill belongs to.  The woman didn't took no notice and I didn't give it to her for that fact.  It might've been PT Boy or Naych.  I ended up 'investigating' on who dropped this money by asking how Naych or PT paid for their meals.  Naych used interact and PT paid the exact change.  With that said, it can't belong either PT or Naych's.  I even checked my pockets if I dropped the money but that can't be right because I had the right amount of money in my pocket--then it must be the woman.  She already left after my investigation was done.  I saw her go to the car and I ended up pocketing the money.  Technically, this was bad in my part for the fact that I didn't do anything to ask her if it were hers.  However, I came to a conclusion that would be foolish.  If she said yes and it isn't hers, then she took it for the sake of getting the money for free.  Nope, it better get to the right person or its pocket change for me.  I ended up telling myself that if she walks back into the restaurant and tries to search for something on the floor, I would go up to her and give her the money.  After awhile, she did just that.  I quickly approach her before she left and ask her if she lost something.  She said that she dropped a $10 bill.  Bingo!  I found our suspect--or victim I should say--or whatever.
       I did felt liberated after that.  It really has been a long time.  Doing that deed was a great start to a new journey.  Being a prince--check.  Being a hero--in progress...
       Though I did have my share of failures, that will be talked about in the next journal entry, I did manage to make up for them with more righteous decision making later on.
       Later in the week, I realize that doing good deeds don't usually occur after an unforeseen circumstance.  They occur even when a common situation happens.  For example, I heard there was a Terry Fox Run donation drive for the cure for cancer on all elementary schools.  I ended up delivering to those school in that week.  At the same time, one of the employees at ICS came up to me and ask me if I would donate some money for her child.  I said, "I would be happy to."  Knowing very well that I'm getting paid a pretty good amount of money.  What is a couple of bucks when I'm earning a thousand a week?  I started off writing down $5 but I didn't have the money on me.  After making the deliveries towards the schools, I remembered something.  I remembered about my childhood days when I was in elementary.  I started looking back on how difficult it was to make a donation to the Terry Fox Drive.  In the past, I've always wanted to make a good run at it (no pun intended) and hit the prize.  I couldn't accomplish that because I couldn't convince anyone to make a donation.  Either that or I was too shy to do so.
       I managed to think of how hard my coworkers child is coping when she doesn't have that much names on that list.  It felt relieving to see the mother (my coworker) helping out his child when I didn't have that kind of support.  I ended up giving $10 instead.  Sadly, there could be a chance that I could've made a bigger donation but I believe my contribution should be enough.
       Later in that day, after thinking about all this Terry Fox Drive throughout the week, I couldn't figure out on a grand scale what greater deed have I accomplished.  It didn't stood out as a 'heroic' deed for the fact that everyone seems to make a similar donation.  However, I did believe this was a situation that had a significant meaning when it comes to deeds.  I just couldn't shrug it away.  All of a sudden, on that same day I made a donation, I found myself looking a Terry Fox dollar.  I was buying pizza and was ready to make a payment.  When I was ready to lay down the money on the table, I found that one of them happens to be a Terry Fox coin.  After what has occurred in that week, this felt like a sign of some sort.  I ended up taking the coin and instead paid the pizza man with a $20 bill.  I kept the coin as a souvenir.
       True.  Even after that day, there was no deep transition that connected with that deed and the coin.  Maybe something more will happen, I don't know.  All I know is that I was rewarded for my efforts and my thoughts.  Probably there will be something relating to overcoming a disease which seems more likely towards what I'm going through.  Yes, I think I have a disease called diabetes.  At my age?!  It does sound ridiculous doesn't it?
       Another great deed that requires a quick thinking dilemma is when I found a case filled with school supplies.  It was located near a bus stop.  I looked around and found out that no one was there to retrieve it.  Obviously, someone left it behind.  Since I found it during my delivery errands, I didn't have time to think of what I should do.  I had to think of the right solution fast.  Probably not the best but something leaning towards a moral victory.  Three came into mind: One is to leave it there and hope someone will retrieve it; another is to take it with me; and the third is to leave it inside a place where I just delivered at hoping someone will find it there.  After quick thinking, I ended up leaving it inside the travel agency where I delivered it to.  I thought it would be best that the person might come come back and retrieve it and if the person starts asking around.  Personally, the more I think about it, I think that was a foolish choice.  If the person does come back, he would find out that it was missing and wouldn't even consider going to the travel agency at all.  On the other hand, if I left it there, there would be a good chance that someone else would take it--or maybe the guy who left it there might get it back.
       I'm starting to think that I really made a foolish choice.  The best case scenario out of the three was taking the case with me.  I never thought highly about it because it felt like I was stealing.  So I made the choice that felt correct by leaving it somewhere safe.  After thoughts led me to think that I should've taken it so that I can give it to the right person.  It's possibly over now since that took place well over a month ago.  In the end, I believed I got some moral points for it.  Whether it was given to the right person or not, I will take that as a victory.
       There are some cases that were trivial to many but I would consider it a helping hand.  I had to help someone transfer files to another computer.  With experience in the past, that was something that was pretty vital if your records were stuck in the wrong computer.  It sounded important enough.  Good thing my little brother gave me an ipod as a gift.  I didn't quite used that to transfer the file but I think that was a token of gratitude for helping my little bro get a new ipod.
       Other successful deeds were helping an old man cross the road--while he was jay walking on crutches!  Yeesh!  Believe me, that was a good deed to help the man live another day.  Other trivials were giving a helpless man a shopping card that had a dollar in it.  By the look in his face, he was in sorrows and pain.  This guy definitely wants something to eat.  Too bad, I couldn't treat him.  The cart will have to do.  Kind of his sideline job.
       Finally, there were deeds that were meaningful and threatening.  Not too extreme but more difficult to overcome than the rest.  All of which are more related to being a 'private detective' or more specifically being the Chameleon!
       Back in the origins of my journal writing, I used to claim myself as being called Chameleon.  It was a cheap rip off from Disney's Doug.  My first case back in grade five was locating a missing pen.  I never found that missing pen but investigating days didn't end there.  Truthfully, I cannot remember any of them other than that case.  Anyway, there was another moment where I had to relive that case.  A customer in my work has a pen that didn't belong to her.  She wanted to figure out who it belongs to.  She thought it was mines but clearly it isn't.  The pen had an eraser at one end.  Who would place an eraser on a pen?  Its not even a pencil.  Anyway, that went on for a week.  In the end, she ended up keeping it.  We didn't narrow it down to anybody so it was for keeps.  Whether we solved it or not, I think the item is in good hands.
       Other intriguing deeds involved my work where my job was on the line.  There was items that I was responsible for and I could face a suspension if I cannot locate that item.  It was supposed to be delivered to someone but I found out that it was already delivered.  The problem was someone scanned the wrong barcode and it became complicated from there.  Through filtering the rights from the wrongs, I came up with the answer to this case.  And for the first time, I really solved something that was critical. 
       Honesty was another deed.  Just like my job, this one related to my paycheck.  I found out that I was over paid.  Call me stupid but I had to report this one to my supervisor.  Normally, anyone who didn't care would just keep it hush hush but for me, I felt like this would be stealing and I was bothered by it.
       Finally, a deed that is long term and a work in progress is to get my little brother back in school again.  Yes, it seems that he is skipping.  He said that he arrived at school late but I don't believe him.  It's grade 12 and he is the better child among the siblings.  I decided that I will buy him an ipod if he made the honor roll.  A big price to pay but something I'm expecting.  I'm keeping tabs of his grades and his work ethics at home.  I ended up getting the computer in the end.  A tradeoff for the fact that my computer is not working.
       Remember the situation in the last series where my computer was not working?  This was the solution to that.  I didn't even ask my little brother for the computer.  He decided to give it to me.
       If you tally up all the things I have done in the past month, I think I might be on my way but truthfully, I shouldn't be jumping for joy.  There is a lot of work to do and there is a long path towards 'redemption'.  I don't think I'm going to make it.  I like this conversation about Angel and Kate.  What really matters is what you can do NOW.  Forget the big picture.  Just do it--and feel it.  That is an act of righteousness.  By doing so, you are on your way in learning the art of righteousness in which Jesus mastered before you.

    Faith:)

    ps: This is a conversation in an episode of Angel called Epiphany.  Angel was in the wrong path for quite some time and eventually found his way into righteousness.  He had to fall into the lowest of low in order to get his life back together again.  This girl, Kate, was once a detective but ended up getting the pink slip.  She blames Angel for it.  She, too, went to the lowest of low and felt like she wanted to commit suicide.  Angel saved her from what she was doing.  She was greatful.  From then on, they both started to talk about life in which case was parallel to mines.  Its about doing good deeds for the sake of doing good deeds no matter how small...

    Kate: I feel like such an idiot.

    Angel: A lot of that going around.

    Kate: I just couldn't--*stops to think about what she is about to say*--My whole life has been about being a cop.  If I'm not part of the force...it's like nothing I do means anything.

    Angel: *shrugs* It doesn't.

    Kate: Doesn't what?

    Angel: *shrugs again* Mean anything.  In the greater scheme or the big picture...nothing we do matters.  *pauses* There is no grand plan, no big win.

    Kate: You seem kind of chipper about that.

    Angel: Well, I guess I kind of...worked it out.  If there's no great, glorious end to all this.  If nothing we do matters...*pauses* then all that matters what we do.  'Cause that's all there is.  What we do now.  Today.

    Kate: *nods in agreement*

    Angel: I fought for so long for redemption, for a reward...and finally, just to beat the other guy, but...*shakes his head*...I never got it.

    Kate: And now you do?

    Angel: Not all of it.  All I want to do is help.  I want to help because I don't think people should suffer as they do.  Because if there's no bigger meaning...then the smallest act of kindness...is the greatest thing in the world.

    Kate: *nods in agreement again*  Yikes.  It sounds like you've had an epiphany.

    Angel: I keep saying that, but nobody's listening.

    *both chuckle*


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